I have been working all evening on a little presentation that I am putting together for a special cub scout training this Sunday. The last couple of weeks have been incredibly stressful for me and I kind of feel like everything in life is getting thrown at me. Not in a bad way, the things I am doing right now are all good and worthwhile. Time consuming, but good. (Except for the move this weekend, but I am not even going to go there.)Anyway, as part of my research for the presentation, I dug out one of my old journals where I have written things down that I have learned of a spiritual nature. The entry that I want to share with you was written exactly one month and thirteen days after I returned from serving as a missionary for my church. As you may know, Mormon missionaries always preach the gospel in pairs. Two by two. And after being home for a month and a half I was starting to feel a little bit lonely for companionship again. This excerpt explains how I was feeling at the time.
Read on:
"And now, I, Moroni, would speak somewhat concerning these things; I would show unto the world that faith is things which are hoped for and not seen; wherefore, dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith" (Ether 12:6).
I have been feeling a little low about my social life. About having "companionship" again and as I was reading this verse this struck me and rung out in my mind but instead of the word "dispute," "doubt" was in my mind. This is the phrase: "[doubt] not because you see not." I have seriously been doubting. I've been so lonely lately that I think that it has begun to take a toll on me. I feel as if I am beginning to forget how to talk to people and as a result I am doubting..."[doubt] not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith." I learned that I need more faith - that this is a trial that I need to go through. I will become stronger afterward. If I endure I will be blessed. I will receive great blessings."
Seven days later, February 6, 1999, I met My Man. By mid March we were engaged and July 10th married for time and all eternity in the Logan Temple. Reading that entry tonight, I just realized the Lord took all doubt from my mind and led me to an incredibly kind, patient, and loving man! I have been greatly blessed!
1 comment:
Great post Kendra. Made me cry... because it hits home with my situation, in regards to having faith because the witness does not come until after the trial of our faith. My situation is more directed toward healing though. I have had to say, out loud, "Have faith," many times. :)
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